Prompt: Body integration. This year, when did you feel the most integrated with your body? Did you have a moment where there wasn’t mind and body, but simply a cohesive YOU, alive and present?
(Author: Patrick Reynolds — The Knowledge Workers Survival Guide — @patrickcantype)
This is hard. I’ve struggled with pain forever, it seems. I remember being 40 pounds lighter as an 18 year old and still going to the chiropractor at 19 or something. I’m currently overweight, so that also doesn’t help matters when it comes to body integration. I also struggle to connect with my body — my mind, body and spirit/emotions often feel like very separate compartments.
Awwww …. fuck. I started this post last night and was going to finish it today. Then it got rid of what I just wrote. I don’t know. I think I said something about
1. sleeping all day today
2. wanting to ditch all my meds and start over but only if I could be in a good place with that … like somewhere where I could get help if not sleeping got to be too much, etc.
3. thinking about Great America and how that was probably one of the times I was most “integrated” — just losing all thought about everything and becoming one with my body, flying down hills, loving life.
4. and being depressed.
I don’t really know. Not feeling very integrated, I guess.