i’ve been away for awhile. i can’t even say exactly why. laziness, apathy, depression. confusion, disregard, lack of direction. yep. but i’m feeling like i need re-establish contact here. like i need to get my voice back. pre-emptively, perhaps. in preparation. in practice. to pave the way for shaking off inertia and getting back to life. to work. to feeling like i’m a member of the human race.
things have got to change. all over the place. and i feel like maybe this will be a first step in that. so, here i am. in the artist’s way, they encourage the participant to do these ‘morning pages,’ which are three pages of free-form writing. i might start doing it and bringing it here. i might just start trying to write once a day again. i really don’t know. but i do know that i’m coming back to the smussyolay. i’ve had this blog for six years, and there’s no reason to walk away now. i just took a little break. and i’m back.
i always have a little breakdown every fall, and it would stand to reason that this fall would take its course as well. come along for the ride as i know it.