despite the fact that any time i come over here to write a blog post, it ends up in draft. seriously, i don’t know what my problem is. i can’t finish a blog post to save my effin’ life. it’s ridiculous. most of the time, i don’t even try at this point, because i know what happens. but even when i come over here with an awesome idea; one that seems to have a great start, a juicy middle, and what normally takes care of itself in the ending department, it always falls flat. i find myself struggling to make sentences meet. i find myself wandering off somewhere in the middle. distracted by my own thoughts, losing interest a paragraph in.
how can i not care about what i am saying and expect anyone else to? i want them to care — there’s this place called The Printed Blog on facebook taking nominations for bloggers and photographers to be nominated to be a part of their TV pilot. i nominated myself, and thought, “hmm. maybe i ought to try and put up a new blog post if i’m saying i am a blogger. i haven’t been very consistent at the old Smussyolay in awhile. i mean, i am a blogger and i used to blog a lot and i know i can blog like a mofo and my YouTube is pretty good and i can throw down on the Flickr and all, but actions speak louder than words, right?” so, i thought i’d come over here and try and give them something to look at besides an audio post about me regretting the past.
here’s the deal. i had already started one post about me nominating myself — and stopped in the middle. seriously, i don’t know what my problem is. what happened to my ability to write? should i start my endeavor to vlog again? should i do it all in the form of a shark puppet? i’m at a loss. but i got right back up on the horse again and was like … “oh, no. you ARE posting something, man. dude. young lady. whatever the fuck i’m supposed to be calling myself in the third person.”
so, this is it. me with a lame ass post trying to leave a trail of evidence for The Printed Blog people that i *do* actually write and that people who have been reading this blog actually find/found it funny, creative, useful, informative, interesting, unique, what-have-you. amen.